“Am I a hopeless case?
You keep saying the same things
But is it on my face
That it isn’t sinking in…”
– Bethany Dillon, “Something There”
The past few months, the Holy Spirit has been trying to get something across to me. Something I thought that I knew very well, but apparently needs to be driven in with a hammer. A sweet, loving hammer.
The past few months have been somewhat difficult for me. I started experiencing some health issues. Multiple symptoms hit at once causing me to worry, the one thing my Jesus asks me not to do. But He understands how our minds work…and He wants to change them.
Right before it all started, the Holy Spirit whispered to me one evening Romans 8:26:
“And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.“
When I heard this, I had a feeling He was preparing me for the road ahead, encouraging me that He was fighting and praying for me constantly. Not only for me but through me. (for when I pray in tongues, the Holy Spirit is praying the perfect prayer directly to the Father)
2 days later, while thrifting, I came across a book from 1980 called “Lord, Hear My Prayer”…with that scripture written inside the cover.
Little did they know their gift would impact someone so much…30 years down the road.
Then came Romans 8:38. One evening, I ran across it 3 times within 5 minutes.
“And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.”
He followed those up with Romans 8:28:
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
So, I started to catch His drift. I see where You’re going with this, Lord.
But why is it so easy to fall back into worry and search for answers instead of trust?
He drove it home with Ephesians 2:
“And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses,made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved, and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.”
To know that I am seated right smack dab next to Him already brings so much comfort and confidence…regardless of my circumstance.
God has used many different ways to get these messages to me…books, friends, songs, the Word. But my favorite way was speaking through me to myself.
One morning, I was exhausted from the trial. I woke up & showered. The only thing I could say was “Thank you for this trial Lord, for I know it’s bringing me closer to You.”
As I walked to the bedroom, without even thinking I said out loud:
“No power of hell, no scheme of man can ever pluck me from His hand.”
It caught my off guard, because it was not me that said it. The Holy Spirit spoke through me to encourage myself. When I realized what had just happened, I broke. Never before have I worshiped Him like that. It was the most pure worship and thankfulness that I had ever poured on Him. The phrase is a lyric from a song called “In Christ Alone”. (that was NOT on my mind at 5am)
I wanted to share all these things tonight to encourage anyone who is walking through their valley. Seasons of darkness come during life….but they also go. Sometimes they linger and overstay their welcome. But nothing that comes our way is unauthorized. God signs off & allows trials to strengthen us, to build trust & dependence on Him, and to pull us closer to Him. What the enemy intends for bad God will ALWAYS turn around for our good. God is ever present. He is never late, and His timing is impeccable. Ask Him to reveal Himself to you…to display His glory in your circumstance. No battle is too hard for Him, no hill too high.
“Blessed be the LORD, my rock, who trains my hands for battle and my fingers for warfare…” – Psalm 144:1